Excuses! Excuses!

Yeah...I know.  It's been a while...ok ok...a very long while since I came and paid attention to you all...and I've got lots of excuses ready and waiting for you.  I know these excuses very well because I've been making them to myself every time I thought about posting again.  I'm too busy, too tired, too depressed, too happy, too bored, too whatever the opposite of bored is...and on and on and on.  Turns out though...none of those things are actually correct...I just didn't know that until today.

I've been too frustrated to write anything new.

It happened a few weeks ago...or whenever my last post was.  I came home from work in a big huffy mood and I pounded out everything that had happened during an incident at work and I felt oh so much better about it.  But then...just as my mouse hovered over the publish button...I realized I couldn't let it out into the world.

It contained too much information about what I really think about a few choice people...people that I give big giant fake smiles to every morning, people that I make idle chit chat with, people that I have to deal with and work with every single day.  People that I can't afford to piss off or offend.

And that's just about the most frustrating, depressing, ridiculous thing I can think of.  I'm not the type to give a shit what others think...and I've rarely been able to keep my mouth shut.  I'm generally known for having a constant case of verbal diarrhea.

So what's stopping me?

Yeah...her.  Again.  I know, I know.

When you've got someone tiny who likes to eat and have a place to live...you don't get to give the big fuck you around the office anymore.

And that's been a hard one to swallow.  And in classic Dana tradition...I overdid it on my thought process and reaction...I felt censored and bitter and frustrated over having to act like I know when to zip it...so I gave the big fuck you to writing this blog instead...only I didn't know that...I thought I was just being lazy.

But I'm over it...and I'm back.  Let's see who has stuck around with me...and who gave up.

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[Fine For Now]

I'm still here!

[brokemom]

fersher, keep em coming!