I am so completely beyond miserable sitting at work all day that I can't even get anything done. Yes, I am even writing this as a way to burn up another 10 minutes of the slowest moving time of the day.
I hate sitting here. I hate the droning noise of the people around me. I hate the meetings and the pointless chatter. I hate the mission statement and the vision statement and the statement statement.
I don't belong here. I wasn't supposed to spend my years editing PowerPoint slides and pretending to give a shit about road alignment or carrying capacity or buffers or whatever other nonsense that has been filling my head over the past 3 years.
I couldn't be more bored. I couldn't be more jaded. I couldn't be more screwed...because there is nothing I can do about it. No where else to go. And I'm too tired to go looking anyway...and the truth of the matter is that I don't want to find anything else. All the other jobs will be exactly the same...they all are just one long soul suck.
It's a crime and a shame that I spend more time with these other so-called "professionals" than my own child. I see my child for about 5 hours everyday vs. the 8-10 I spend with my coworkers and let's not even talk about the 2 hours stuck in a car everyday.
Sigh. I don't have any answers.
I don't have any plan.
But damnit...do I ever need one.
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